Monday, October 15, 2012

requiem

My head hangs in shame.

I try to lift it – it rolls off and goes away rolling.

I am no body no head no entity. 

I am abandoned and alone – I may think myself – Supremum or Infimum or any me in between. Whatever I please; all is entirely my wish; and whenever I wish.

There shall be none any more.

There shall be none ever other than me. No one shall occupy my space; no Banalata Sen shall sit beside me without words gazing at me with eyes of infinite depth mutely asking 'where had I been?'.

There shall be none to whom I may sing a song of love again. 

no love.no option no preference.

no thought - beautiful intelligent original or repeating..

nameless meaningless

no pause no end

Monday, October 1, 2012

I command


OH, A LION HUNTER
IN THE JUNGLE DARK,
AND SLEEPING DRUNKARD
UP IN CENTRAL PARK,
AND A CHINESE DENTIST
AND A BRITISH QUEEN
ALL FIT TOGETHER
IN THE SAME MACHINE.
NICE, NICE,
SUCH VERY DIFFERENT
PEOPLE IN THE SAME
DEVICE!
- BOKONON
In a recent epic, Mahabharata, I sang two hundred thousand verses for the good of earthlings; Verses floated down the Falls on Earth and carried by the river, Daughter of None.
This epic started before time when there was no heaven, and ended after when there is no heaven and there is no time.
There never was any big/small bang anywhere – no cow boy lived to start any bang, nor had he any String to rope any or all theories proposed after that bang!
What was the color before there was any heaven or after any heaven – I did not ask but answered in the epic. My verses in the epic described all the time all the births all the lives and all the deaths. I also sang the 'verse of no option' - that one has to play precisely as per the verse without choice. That much is the flexibility one has with one's life and one's life’s ambition. ‘You may say all this’, one of my listener said, ‘since it is not your life, and I have to make a decision and it should be good enough reason for me to fight and exist'. (like weapons for mass destruction or Iranian nuclear bomb)
But there is no option to one's struggle for existence, one cares or not!
‘Discovery’ is launched and ejected me into space, I am interested to see the origin of universe as I described in my verse – the creator - without any theory - without any expectation of finding proof or existence of sub-atomic particle or any faith of any kind. I am already tie less and my absence shall not be discovered after I am no more.
Tie less I shall avoid getting tied up and if universe is limited, eventually I shall return to earth if universe is indeed so.
I have facilities in my module to create any atmosphere of my liking – day and night – shine or rain – spring or winter – day sky night sky – familiar sounds unfamiliar sounds – all voice control. I do not have to juggle around with any knobs or machinery. I can read and write – eat drink or fast – run swim bath or just relax in any surroundings all created in my module with infinite depth perception and real without feeling of any phobia of any kind. (unless I desire for phobia)
It may be a long voyage!
It is marvel of a machine. Any book or toy or any stimulant of any kind is waiting to be provided or withdrawn – I do not have to struggle to remember where they are – all are under my voice command control as per my need.
I commanded to the machine - no noise no sight no feelings no weight no nothing – remain tangential to all attraction from all bodies and I relax in my gravity less module. All is voice control there is no need for any kind of clock – time is what I say and it has no option to be otherwise and there is no need to be otherwise. Let now be 15008 years hence, co-ordinate be mid way milky way and Andromeda. There is none only me.
I watch my thoughts - pieces of spring cloud floating around and dissolving into the surrounding nothing. Thoughts are – do I have any physique – do I have senses – am I earthling – is there a module – where am I – what is tomorrow – what is any – what is many – what is the most lovely form – what is the most lovely thought – what is most enjoyable – what is joy?
I can have any of them via my voice command and I do not even have to speak or whisper - no desire for command can go unnoticed. My module is hyper-hyper sensitive. I may spend time as much and as long I want in most beautiful settings with the most beautiful partner (s) of my choice – all adoringly absorbed in conversation with me with full attention and feelings of love and indulgence – without interruption – without disruption.
Unless I wish to go back to the old world that I came from – that too is possible with my voice command – whatever is my wish.
What really is universe? What is nothing? Who is the creator?
All - universe, love, joy or nothing - fit into the module with space for more commands, only 3.5 lb of weight! The module is all ears and eyes watching me all the time - waiting to execute command to create the perception of PURE LOVE & JOY as per my exact specification.
I will - 'may my world always be fresh beautiful non-repeating real pure unlimited forever new with infinite depth of perception and endless ocean of indescribable joy and ecstasy; and none need know'

I will - void all including me and my command executor without exception without trace without remnant without legacy without delay

I will - absence of me and my will